I had a meet with the craigslist hookup for Friday afternoon, but she had to cancel. I told her I’d call her on Monday. I checked the email account I use to troll for hoes late Sunday night, but not before I had choked the chicken.
She again gave her regrets for Friday and said she could see me Monday afternoon or Friday afternoon. I have been avoiding jerking off a day or two before seeing her to try to improve my sexual performance, but I didn’t want to wait until Friday. So I called her and told her I’d come over.
I have used Viagra in the past to overcome the erection-killing effects of condoms, but I have been trying to get to where I can have intercourse with a condom on, orgasm, without any ED drug. I had not actually successfully penetrated her and I was getting tired of it so I took half a 100mg Viagra. I got some LifeStyles Ultra Thin condoms and went over.
Long story short it still wasn’t working. Without the condom on, erection, put it on, the erection dies before I can get inside her and won’t come back. It’s got me pretty discouraged.
I talked to my friend about this. He gets a fair amount of sex, but mostly from fairly unattractive women. He said sometimes the little man in his brain says “No, I’m not going to do this” when he’s with an ugly woman, and it pisses him off, but there’s nothing to be done. He says I need to find a better-looking hookup.
I have been meeting various other women off the internet, mostly a few years older. I took one to dinner Friday night; she is a little shy but I’m sure she wants to go for it. I’m meeting another tomorrow who seems pretty eager. I think I won’t know how it will go until I actually have sex with them; but my friend is probably right, you may intellectually want to have sex with an ugly woman, but if your brain says no, it won’t happen.
One thing I have noticed about guys who get a lot of sex is that usually they will have sex with anything- they may get hot women, but if there is not hot woman at hand they will do an undesirable one. I suspect guys who get a lot of sex typically have a high level of testosterone, and this trumps money, looks, game, or anything else. And also allows a guy to have sex with unattractive women.
So I’m going to keep working on this.