I decided I needed to do something to improve my ability to perform next time I had the opportunity to have sex, whenever that may be. I went to a sex toy store and got something called a “Fleshlight” which can also be purchased at www.fleshlight.com. I have tried similar products in the past but I think they were too tight or the material was not as good. I transitioned over to using this to masturbate; at first I couldn’t maintain an erection for very long, let alone have an orgasm but I got used to it after a while. I think I still have performance anxiety and sexual shame problems but I think this should help a lot.
I googled the email handle of the woman I had this experience with. She has a few rather plaintive personal ads up. She is insecure about her appearance, which is kind of silly because while she’s not a model she’s plenty cute and sexy enough for normal purposes. I emailed her once the next day implying the second time would go better, and got no response; I emailed her again about two weeks later and got “no thank you.” OK, I had my shot and I blew it.